LIFE OF A CASTAWAY

- Still Holding On

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You won’t silence me none, and what you won’t do is talk shit about my people and what I stand for !!

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Imagine If You Were Homeless…

This isn’t really the first time I’ve been homeless. There was a time once before. I really believe that he should have handled that better than the way he did. My friends were saying that he was already bothered much by me and was just looking for an excuse to put me out. The other was saying that there is something more to it, as in him liking me although the guy was saying differently. 

The agreement that was established upon the offer to stay with him was to live there rent free and just pay half the power and half the gas. I agreed to that upon move in, but once I was in things were shifted. He was saying that he didn’t want any money from me for anything, so I was like umm okay. 

Yet he was always nagging about the power bill because of my video game playing and then about the gas saying that keep my showers to a 15 minute max. In my head I’m just like…..
I didn’t mind giving any money to help pay half power or the gas, but I guess he was just caught up and full of himself saying that he can handle his own and don’t need anything from anyone. Though he explained about his times when he was once living with others and things and his mishaps that made him feel bad and less of a person, he puts me out over Comcast issue. When I explained to him that I didn’t know they were going to be touching your things, He replied back in a rude tone “WELL WHEN YOU GO LIVE WITH SOMEONE ELSE, YOU KNOW NOW !!”

I don’t understand how you can say you care about someone and want help assist them to get better in life and you do things to belittle them; as well as hold things over their heads.

My mom was asking how did I meet this person? Who are they to you? And now that I think about it, I have no idea. We met from my previous job he use to come in from time to time to get lunch and leave. So what I’ve summed it up to be now is that he is an individual who thinks he is perfect, doesn’t make mistakes and just knows everything. 

At the end of the day with so little of that time, he didn’t help me accomplish anything at all…


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- The Cure For Homophobia

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kelvinmartian:

I just got rejected by this guy because I have HIV and they say “There’s nothing I can do for him.” Simply wasted the hell out of my time ! He’s saying because I am not a rich, big money, baller with a fancy car etc. and that I can’t do anything for them. They said in text message “I did tell you I’m the shit. I need someone that can offer me more than what I can offer them or at least match that.” 

To me that is very shallow and seems like he’s materialistic much! I had a feeling that something ignorant was going to happen by the end of it all. This is why I do not take anyone seriously anymore especially from talk unless proven other wise by actions. It will be okay though, he can can be the ignorant/shallow person he wants to be.

It’s okay though and I told him this: I am use to being rejected because of having HIV, but one day they’ll some how some way feel the pain I feel from that.

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"Are you having sex for money ?"

All I do is wish to have a successful and happy life, but don’t we all? As you all should know by now, I myself have been struggling since moving out of my parents house back when I was 18.

However, I’ve not once went back home or to live with any of my other family members. I strive and push myself as hard as I can to get where I need/want to be in life. I don’t want to stay in the dark; not knowing where my next meal is coming from or even if I am going to be eating on that day. Last month was rough with my gas being cut off and all. Was forced to take cold showers and no heat to have on to stay warm. Thank God for one of my good best friends, I was able to go to his house when he got off work to take a shower.

Then the times he wasn’t home or I wasn’t able to make it over I heated a bowl of cold water up in the microwave to take a “Bird Bath” in my bathroom sink. With the gas being off and all there were late fees, deposits, and re connection fees that had to be paid before we could get it cut back on. I got sick after a while as well and had days I couldn’t go to work. Wasn’t too sure if it was from the HIV or just a cold. I just felt out of it, hopeless and lost almost the appetite to even eat and I barely have been eating. Headache, Body aches, diarrhea,  snot in throat, sniffling, coughing and nauseated, but yet I’m suppose to smile and keep fighting. Pretty much was having panic attack as well due to stress and I had a lot of trouble getting to sleep.

All this being said, as we all can see. No bill company, Life, and even most people, WILL NOT wait on you. So you have to get out there and get what you need for yourself and if you have help along the way, Love and Cherish each person whom is in your life and wants nothing but the best and to see you succeed.

I share my business to be an example, To show others they are not alone, and to show those who don’t know what it’s like for someone to struggle. Learning is a gift, even when pain is your teacher…

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kelvinmartian:

I actually made my docs appointment this morning. Sometimes there are more tubes that need to be taken, but I only had to do 4 today. This is what I have to go through every 4-6 months. I pretty much say I’m treated like a “Lab Rat” in which I am being experimented on, BUT this is very IMPORTANT! Every doctors appointment that is scheduled it is a MUST that you go! You have to keep up on them, and do as you are instructed. I am not on medication because my numbers are good numbers and I still to this day remain “Undetectable”. This means that there was so little HIV in one sample of blood that the test could not find any, so it’s kind of like you have it, but you don’t. This is just the blood work that was done for me today. I have another appointment that was scheduled to get my results for this one read to me. I expect nothing other than good news on that.

I wanted to give you all some insight on how things are going for me and what goes on while being HIV+. I hope all of who I am and what I do is an example and inspiration to you all.




kelvinmartian:

-My Life Story 




kelvinmartian:

I just got rejected by this guy because I have HIV and they say “There’s nothing I can do for him.” Simply wasted the hell out of my time ! He’s saying because I am not a rich, big money, baller with a fancy car etc. and that I can’t do anything for them. They said in text message “I did tell you I’m the shit. I need someone that can offer me more than what I can offer them or at least match that.” 

To me that is very shallow and seems like he’s materialistic much! I had a feeling that something ignorant was going to happen by the end of it all. This is why I do not take anyone seriously anymore especially from talk unless proven other wise by actions. It will be okay though, he can can be the ignorant/shallow person he wants to be.

It’s okay though and I told him this: I am use to being rejected because of having HIV, but one day they’ll some how some way feel the pain I feel from that.

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Ya’ll ignorant fools need to stop this damn fuckery ! It’s tired and it’s LATE ! Learn and do better ! E-Ballers need to find something more productive to do with their lives. What I mean by “E-Ballers” in the words of B. Scott, “Those who feel more powerful behind a computer”.

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kelvinmartian:

-My Life Story